been going through the motions taking every new day that i live as nothing special we're too used to life too used to breathing i am not living i merely exist i might be living in my head but what good is that. i need to wake up i need to start making use of this life before the world ends and then we're all just regretful that we couldn't be fucked to do more than exist.

You make me feel like shit.



Today was a good day. First sports day in my 4 years in TK that I actually really enjoyed. It probably had something to do with being aware that it was my last TK sports day ever. I guess I just didn't want to be all bored and sulky again. I think the best part of today was definitely the Flashmob. It was so wonderful!!! I can't dance for nuts lah but it's ok. It still felt amazing to be a part of it. After sports day we had lunch and then Mai, Sharifah and I went to Petom's huge-ass house and spent the afternoon playing with her Kinect thingy. It's so cool ok it's like Wii without the controllers. It detects your frickin movements. Hahaha k I am easily amazed by technology. The dance game was so fun I swear. It's supposed to be a one-on-one dance off thing but in the end we just teamed up and all of us danced together. We have this rlly long video of us like screwing up all the moves. Or maybe just me lah. Hahaha I should really learn to dance. I'm so bloody awkward pls.



I think I seriously live in my own world. A lot of the time I can't really be bothered with like.. people. I'm so shiok sendiri I swear. Anyway, I shaved my head again. My teachers think I'm troubled. It's just hair........



but

Am still reeling from the bliss of Thursday night.

Other shows I must go to during my lifetime:

Arcade Fire.
Lykke Li.
Sigur Ros.
Yeah Yeah Yeahs.
Russian Red.
Portugal. The Man.
The Morning Benders.

OK I need to get into study mode. Exams are in a month? 14 points I can do it I can do it I can do it!!!!!

MGMT + The Whitest Boy Alive were breathtaking. I went with Nooranah, Vanessa and Nadhirah and we were stuck about 7 rows from the stage. I had to tiptoe most of the time to see past people's heads, but I had such an amazing time! We also bought a daisy to throw to Andrew during the concert but we broke it at one point so we stuck it in Vanessa's hair.

Halfway through I kicked off my shoes, lost them and my whole bag somewhere on the floor, danced barefoot and didn't care even when my toes were being crushed. The crowd was a little bit awkward though, at times. There were people who kind of just stood there with their arms crossed, which was damn stupid because you paid over a hundred bucks to see an amazing band live man. At least move to the beat or something! Hahaha these two girls beside me were dancing so I joined in too. I probably looked fucking stupid as hell but self-consciousness goes out of the window when you have MGMT in front of you.

I've never really listened to The Whitest Boy Alive before this, but they were really great performers! Erlend is incredibly attractive in every sense of the word. Their set was pretty short actually, but they played good music and it was so fun. Then there was about a half hour of equipment checks and whatever before MGMT finally came on!

They opened with It's Working if I remember correctly. It was so fucking surreal I swear to god I could have died. And Andrew was wearing kitty ears oh my. They played a lot better than I'd expected based on youtube videos I've watched. Andrew's voice is heavenly and Ben is amazing at his keyboard. I think my favourite song of the night was Of Moons Birds and Monsters. OK actually it's a tie between that, Weekend Wars and Flash Delirium. Crazy shizz. Sigh their set felt like it was never gonna end. It was so lovely. I have this mental image of Andrew singing with his eyes closed ingrained into my brain. It is one heck of a beautiful image.

The crowd went crazy during Kids and Time To Pretend the ground was actually shaking!!! HAHA but I wanted to laugh during Siberian Breaks because it is a 12 minute song but these people around me kept thinking it was ending whenever the song went into one of the quiet bits and started cheering but then the song would pick up and it was like "dang it" cause no one including me really knew all the words to it lol. K then at one point they left the stage without saying anything and I honestly thought that was it. BUT HOLY SHIT THEY CAME ON AGAIN AND THE CROWD JUST SURGED FORWARD OH MY GOD AND THEY PLAYED BRIAN ENO AND THE HANDSHAKE AND SOMETHING ELSE AND CONGRATULATIONS AND MY HEART COULD HAVE BURST AND EVEN IF IT DID IT WOULD HAVE BEEN A-OKAY BECAUSE I WOULD HAVE DIED AT THE BEST FUCKING MOMENT OF MY LIFE SIGH.

BUT OF COURSE all good things must come to an end. It was so painful to watch them leave the stage, and to realise we were supposed to carry on with our lives now ;___; I found my bag and shoes lying on the ground once everyone cleared off, and then we got a $5 cup of coke which was really just a lot of ice and went home. I had to take a cab home cuz it was 12 30 by the time I really got out of the place. Sigh. Best 140 dollars I have spent thus far. I hope they release another album soon and go on tour and come here again and play Metanoia because that song is the ultimate shit. It is also another 13 minute song. Hahaha.

Camp was good. Dragon boating was good. Pumping juniors was kinda good. Nightwalk was hilarious! Watching the sec 3s complete their 260 push ups and cheering them on made me burst into tears with Pei Shan cause we were leaving all this in like what, 4 weeks? :(

I think that at this point I'm pretty sure what I want to do with my life. I'll open up my vegan cafe cum art gallery and book store on Arab Street, do that for about 10 years or so, and after that start working my way up to becoming a museum director or something along those lines. I just don't know which route to take now. As I see it, I've got three options: JC, poly or art school.

My english teacher gave me a box of ferrero rocher today. She also carressed my face. I am slightly afraid.



Ya let's all eat nutella toast and drink coffee for dinner.

Oh hey, it's only 2 weeks 'til term one's over.

wah life's so exhausting.






I made some cupcakes today! The box calls them fairy cupcakes so I shall as well. They're pink, with pink icing and pink glitter. Hahaha I feel like a 6 year old.

I've saved $75 now. Another $30 to go if I can still get the early bird tickets. Or $63 if I'm too late. I feel so sad and tired and sad and tired and sad and tired today. Yesterday's terrorist videos during SS were so depressing I cried. I've been studying like crazy this past week. Probably going to study sec 3 e maths and chem at the library today. I am officially unattracted to the boy in the bus with the sexy lips. What is life.