Hey.

I'm sad to say that NPAP is over. No more PT-less parades, or attracting attention by crossing the boundary between TKSS and TKGS in our half uniform of short skirts and white t-shirts. No more mentally cursing at cadet inspectors, no more bitching about bitches who won't talk to me. No more noisy-as-hell, hour-long bus rides to and from the Home Team Academy all the way in Choa Chu Kang, no more handing out surveys to VS dudes, no more reaching home at almost ten or in some cases(like the final parade) at 11.. Hahah. Gonna miss these times.

I discovered some things during or after the last parade on Saturday. Some things I will stay hush about, some things I feel I might reveal on this blog. We'll just see.

Anyway, I learned from people around me that if I don't smile, I look kind of pissed or upset. And when I really am pissed or upset, I scare people. Apparently one dude thought I was furious at him on Saturday on the bus-ride back to TKSS. In actual fact, I was merely angry that I didn't get to eat anything the whole day other than a slice of bread with Nutella in the morning. Haha, I dunno whether to clear up the misunderstanding, but under these circumstances, I guess I'll have to wait it out or let somebody else do it for me cos it might sound weird. You probably don't even know what I'm talking about but whatever.

You know, I went for the first parade thinking I would probably crush on someone without anybody liking me back. Saturday I found out that two people liked me and I wasn't exactly emotionally attached to anybody. I am a bit overwhelmed, a bit unbelieving right now. This whole situation doesn't sound very right at all. But whatever it is, I turned one guy down because of certain reasons only a few people know and the other, I read that he wanted my number but ended up not even talking to me. I guess it was because I was giving everybody death glares in the bus or something.

This is kinda flattering, because I'm basically very inexperienced in this department, but it doesn't matter now. NPAP is over and we're moving on with our lives.

Oh yeah, I got into the top 40 :D I am a happy bean. The actual parade was so amazing. Almost breath-taking, even. You couldn't help not holding your head high. There is a video of the march-in on Youtube, and I guess our drills are quite OK, save for a few mistakes and out of sync people.

That moment when we were marching out onto the parade square, my heart just went all mushy. Our contingent was just so supportive, encouraging and ultimately, we just felt bonded. Plus, seeing all the people cheering for us was very cool.

Still, the aftermath of the event was way better. Everybody was ultra hyper marching back to our 'classroom' screaming out the timings and chanting together. That also made my heart mushy and I'm really proud of myself for being able to hold it together and not burst into tears.

This was a once in a lifetime experience and I guess I will treasure these memories for as long as I am destined to. I feel as though I should have made more out of it, like maybe I should have made more friends etc. but right now there's really no point in having any regrets. At least there's another NPCC event I am looking forward to.

ATC/Adventure Training Camp is like, on the last day of school I think and we are going to be staying on Pulau Ubin for 3 days. We are soooo gonna kick the other schools' asses in PT. According to our seniors, the physical training was slack as hell. During NPAP, I asked a girl in our contingent how she found it. Tough, she said. We are seriously gonna own everyone :D

Now all we gotta work on is our campcraft. Go TK NP!

OK I think I am done here.

Bye.