Hello.

It's the first day of Ramadhan and I'm not fasting. It's that time of the month, you see. :(

I hate missing the first day of the fasting month. I just feel like there's nothing to get excited about. It's probably gonna be another week or so till I can finally start fasting. This sucks too much.

I hope that some other people in class aren't gonna be fasting next week too. I remember how Adlina and I sneaked food into class last year, and how the dudes at the Western stall we were buying from gave us weird looks. Embarrassing, but we have to survive, you know.

In other news, this is actually the first time in three days that I am using the computer. I'd like to consider this a huge achievement, but surprisingly, it didn't take much to stay away from the PC. I have been serious about school as of late, and it's weird. It's not in the least bit the way I usually am, but I've come to realise that it's something I need to do. Like seriously.

This change in attitude is probably due to being dumped in geography remedial.

Geography remedial okay.

If it was history I wouldn't have been so taken aback, but this is geog we're talking about. This used to be my best subject, the one I'd score more than 90 for, seemingly without any effort needed. Somehow, this term my marks just plummeted. I failed. By 0.5.

So yeah, I was the only one in 2e2 to be stuck with the trembling(I think it's probably an illness), eardrum-shattering, funny clothes, Cheshire cat smile Ms T every alternate Friday. She can be quite alright, but sometimes she picks on people and that just gets my blood boiling. I was expecting her to be quite mean to the remedial people last week, but as it turns out, she was quite the opposite. She gave us sweets, joking that it was bribery, and she didn't shout so my ears were perfectly fine by the end of that hour.

She called to have a talk with me afterwards however. She asked quite a few things; about me falling asleep in class, about my family, stuff like that. I told her I lived quite far, and I don't really get enough sleep. I didn't exactly tell her that I waste my life on the Internet almost- wait, scratch that- everyday, but that doesn't matter now. She suggested that I consider switching schools to somewhere a lot nearer. Said she knows there aren't really any good schools in Jurong, but I'd be top if I went, that I'd still get into JC and uni no doubt. Then she said that perhaps it'll be better if I quit NPCC. And damn, that's when the floodgates opened. First time in a long while. I insisted, albeit humiliatingly through tears and snotty nose, that I didn't want to quit NPCC or TKGS. I'd thought about it before in sec 1, but no, I've realised that I liked it here. I guess I made up my mind then that I'd better buck up soon. Before I'm left with no options but to go.

I think, that the reason I did so badly this term was because I've been neglecting my studies to hang out and have fun. I can't count the number of times that I've gone all the way to Tampines, just to have lunch with Syazian and Fiqo, walk around, enjoy myself. Most of the time, I came back home exhausted. Instead of spending what little energy I had left on homework or studying, I'd get on the computer, talk to my friends again, and go to bed late. I've been pretty distracted too, with new friends, boys, whatever. I don't really know how I got myself so messed up. I don't need to know how now, I just need to get back on the right track. The EOYs are creeping up on us. Gotta focus.

Okay this is a very, very long post. I shall stop soon and then help my grandfather create the e-mail address he needs for a facebook account. Hahaha. This is friggin cute.

See ya.