Life at home is a total suckfest. It makes me wonder if I've been kidding myself all this while, because I couldn't possibly have had a happy childhood with these people around me. You know how we're supposed to surround ourselves with people who make us feel good? They never said that this might be a hard thing to pull off within your family.

Defence is such a weird word when you've stared at it long enough. Especially if it's in caps. Literally, it sounds like it's supposed to mean something along the lines of taking down fences or whatever the opposite of putting them up is. But then I realised that it actually means the exact opposite of that, figuratively of course. Haha this is cool. And it's all the quiz competition's fault.

I'm trying to do research on Total Defence right now. Stress on the 'trying' here. I am hopeless at this kind of thing, because I honestly cannot focus. I get distracted way too easily. At present instead of getting this TD stuff over and done with, out of the way, and rewarding myself with an almost full night's worth of sleep, I am thinking and blogging about how sucky the people I live with can be, how the word defence has lost its coolness and is starting to annoy me, wondering about how I'll look like if I really do not sleep well, feeling optimistic about how I'll be out of the house for the most part of tomorrow and will come back to a grandmother-free home, listening to The Academy Is... Facebook is out of the picture because I made a vow not to touch it for now. It's gotten boring anyways. I guess I get bored of stuff easily and start to stone after a while. Probably explains the whole distraction thing.

Okay I'm trying to tell my brain right now that I'm bored of blogging and my Total Defence notes are tempting me(again, stress on the 'trying'). Wish me luck.