Holidays are... lonely. But even then I don't feel like texting or calling people, or even talking to them on MSN. Syadza's complaining that I haven't been having the mood to entertain her smses. It's one AM and Lovers in Love is on repeat. I seriously have no sense of time or a sensible routine now. I stay awake reading magazines till three in the morning, fall asleep, wake up at half past four to get out of the jeans I fell asleep in, take a bath, sleep again and wake up at eleven. Then I watch Friends reruns or Nickelodeon or MTV, have lunch, bathe again, attempt to clean up my room and fall asleep once more. My brain feels so fucked up from not doing anything productive.. Which is probably a sign; I should get started on those annoying e-learning assignments. Or at least just glance through, see how much shit I've been ordered to complete by the end of the year.
Life feels so weird now.
And quiet.
I hate to say it, but I think I kinda miss school. Hmm, well, tomorrow the squad's meeting up to practice drills. At least that's something. Okay I shall look forward to tomorrow. Sleep is probably a sensible thing to do, then.
Oh oh oh my grandma just got a new kitten! He's so adorable and I'm excited that she's taking care of him, but I kinda feel sad thinking about what it must feel like for all those kitties who've been abandoned as babies. I mean I keep wondering if this kitten's missing its mom or not, if it gets that hollow feeling in the middle of the night, the kind we get when we miss someone really badly. K late nights aren't doing me any good, apparently.