I feel so lost and distracted and detached. Haven't been studying. Intensive revision starts tomorrow, so hi there 8 and a half hour school days. Looking forward to all the drilling papers. Please let me focus. I need to do well for mid years or I am really going to feel like shit. I am sad. I don't know about what but I am sad. I think I am sad by nature. I'm always sad. Even when I'm not. I made a tumblr on Thursday. I've always been anti-tumblr but it seemed interesting that day. I feel like pretentious crap. But I understand why it's so addictive. I like the really morbid blogs. The ones with photos of people who are probably dead now. They're all sad. I don't really like the blogs with bubblegummy photos of tall and thin girls who look the same and dress the same. I think it was a mistake. Takes up too much of your time. I should delete it soon. The heat is draining. I just keep eating ice and taking cold showers. I haven't been drawing. I should draw. I need a book to read. I have been reading the same things over and over again. I think Paulo Coehlo's Veronika Decides to Die is beautiful. I think your features are beautiful. I don't know about you, but your face is really nice.